Alpia fruties

Alpia fruties (chocolate-covered raisins) are my latest thing. During study breaks or when I cannot fall asleep (like every night) or when I need some endorphins, they are therapeutic.

I discovered them in Primary 6 when J and I went to watch a movie and she brought a long a packet which her dad bought for her and I couldn't stop eating them cuz they were so addictive!

I've put my trust in you, pushed as far as I can go

I'm trying to webcast the lecture on how we see while my aunt (some times removed) with flaming red hair is having a really loud chat in the kitchen, which is unfortunately closest to my room, and so I just cannot move past the cornea to get started on glaucoma, which I am very interested in as my grandmother has the condition, although I will probably never be an opthalmologist as I fail to see anything more than some yellow, some black and some vessels when I peer in despair through an opthalmoscope.

I take a deep breath that I need. Haha

On the bright side, I got to see otitis externa in my friend's ear.

NHS which happened last Sunday was a good experience. Armed with case files, stets, syphomanometers, alcohol swabs, clorhexidine hand rub, CBG sets etc and my M4's willingness to teach, the three of us set of down a row of 1-room rental flats and were lucky to be welcomed into four of these. It was a real eye-opener, seeing how the residents live in this sector. Most of them are poor, but the residents we saw are not that removed from the healthcare sector. They were on treatment for the common chronic diseases, cancer, and bone and joint problems. Some of them had problem lists numbering up to ten and corresponding drug prescriptions!

When I look at you,

my heart fills.

((((((:

Joys of reading Robbins

"Cigarette smoke condensate is a witches' brew of tumorigenic delicacies such as polycyclic hydrocarbons and other potent mutagens and carcinogens."

Joys of mugging

Funny lecturer:

"Heparin inhibits the activity of coagulation factors 2a, 7a, 9a and 10a. 2 plus 7 equals to 9, and 10! So it's a lot easier for you to remember, isn't it?"

"Warfarin stands for Wisconsin Academic Research Fund coumARIN. This is a blockbuster drug for University of Wisconsin. Anyone who wants to go to Uni of Wisconsin to study, be rest assured that they have a lot of money to support you, because there is only one oral anticoagulant in the world, so every year they enjoy a lot of royalty. So we are trying to develop drugs as well. So if we develop one, we'd call it NUSarin."

Duo

It's late, I'm tired and my mind is full of sick kidneys and prostates, but I don't wanna go to sleeeeeeep. I have been sitting here, cheek in hand, staring at the screen in a sedated state for the past ten minutes.

It is time to sleep.

You make me feel:

Sad. Disappointed. All these non-productive and even counter-productive emotions at a time when I would like to feel supported, encouraged. So upset that I need to intentionally go online (when I'm originally not signed in to msn) to talk to my friends and rant and let them warm me up, and let their love seep into me. Like I need to type out stupid details, so that I can get another opinion on you, and on why. Weighed down. Like you don't care, and can't be bothered to do the little things that matter. That I'm prolonging the inevitable. Like I'm not good enough. Like you are not good enough. In fact, like you suck. Like I have poor judgement, and also am judgemental. Confused. Like already, you've forgotten what you said. Like I'm at the bottom of your list of priorities, because who cannot make plans just a week in advance? Like I may be wrong and may be partly at fault. Like I need to go to bed now because I've wasted enough of my energies on this nonsense.