My prayer

Dear God,

Today was such a lovely day (Playhouse day). Spent with so many of my favourite people :D
As tomorrow shall be as well. Thank you for the wonderful weekend.

New favourite cake: NYDC's Mochamisu
Told stupid Q gleefully that I got a huge slice and he announced it to everyone haha. Thank you for lovely friends that make me happy, that I sit here typing this when I'm so sleepy. Thank you for each of them who make me smile as I think of them now.

Medicine EOPT is over, thank you God for letting me pass. Thank you that it is time for a break, cuz I really could not go on much longer. As you know, on the very first day of Gen Med posting I was already tired. Lord, please let the patients whom You took home be united with You in heaven, especially the two from my ward. Lord, you give, and you take away, in Your time. And we were caught off guard, because Your time is not predictable. When I stood in the crowded space within the drawn curtains watching my first resus case, all I could do was stare. At the patient, at the doctor doing the resus, at the other doctors, at the nurse, at the vitals monitor........ I can't really describe what I felt then, in fact I think I don't really know.

Thank you for Winter, I know she has been trying to tell me that I should spend more time with her and not keep telling her that I'm going to bathe, and then that I'm going out. Please help me to make time for her cuz I love her and actions speak louder than words.

Lord, you know everything there is to know about me. Even the answer to the question I asked myself tonight while on the way home: Why am I always like this? Why do I always react like this and feel like this? When I feel afraid, think I've lost my way, still You're here right beside me. I don't know why it always comes back to me feeling this way, Lord help me to grow, help me to change, teach me Your ways and guide my words and my steps. Most importantly, may You guide my words and deeds that I may not hurt anyone dear to me.

And as always, thank you for never leaving me and for being the best listener ever whom I can pour out my heart to anytime and all the time. Truly You are the love of my life and may You give me the grace to be more faithful.

Love,
me